Snow, thaw, snow

Now we're in March. It snowed 12 inches last Monday. This weekend there was a thaw, and all the snow melted away. Birds were chirping etc. Today it is snowing again, we're supposed to get four inches by the end of the day. March alternations will proceed.

Luciana and I are continuing to reconnect. It's not that difficult.

We are both, I think, finding that we have experienced a lot of loneliness and that we continue to experience loneliness. Maybe this is part of having babies in your fifties. There are people who are interested, there are people who are (somewhat) involved, but everyone has a center to their lives and everyone must pursue their own interests and work out their own purposes.

We have been sharing interests and purposes for five years (come May 15th) and we still do.

Somehow, having the triplets would change that, we imagined. I don't think this was ever an explicit wish or fantasy. One of those background assumptions which now has been tried in the heat of reality. It melted away, fast.

Okay. No problem. We get it.

Snow, thaw, snow. Alterations in conditions. Back and forth. Living on the pendulum. If we are here, that predicts that soon we will be there. If we are there, that predicts that soon we will be back here.